I built this wall up as a child that caused me to be independent. In our society independence is seen as a positive characteristic. A strength. Something people strive to be. I believe that independence can be good when it’s used correctly.

What if you are denying service though?

What if you are being a blessing blocker?

What if you aren’t letting others in? 

That is exactly what I did and still struggle with sometimes. I created this thought deep within side my self that I wasn’t worth being fought for so I had to fight for myself and it didn’t matter if other people tried to help I could do it on my own.

LIES!

Throughout this crazy journey with the Lord I’ve started to let more people in. I’ve created this dependence on the Lord and also with community I deeply trust. As my month in Belize came to an end the one thing I reflected over was being fought for by the people around me and a few back home! 

A few days throughout the month I came back from ministry where some of the girls surprised me with my favorite snack. Girls would ask how I was truly doing and pray over me when things just felt off. My best friends from home checked on me regularly to see where my heart was. My dad often sent Bible verses that seemed to relate way to perfectly to what I was walking through. Madie sat on the phone with me as I vented or processed through things. She came to Belize with watercolors that her and Mel (XSquad Sister) had bought for me because for some reason I felt like I didn’t need them on the race even though I often worship the Lord through painting. 

One of my favorite verses talks about how the Lord will fight for you. (Exodus 14:14) He one hundred percent did that this month. My community constantly fought for my time alone, my time with the Father and showed loved in the most random but needed ways. 

Updates: WE ARE IN HONDURAS!!! 

All squad month is here and our host are absolutely wonderful!

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