At the beginning of September I sat down with my mom explaining to her that I just felt off.

I began crying because I felt like I was doing nothing. I did not have a routine, a job or anything really to do but wait.

Well now, here I am in the Atlanta Airport.
The wait is over.

The Lord has entrusted Madie, Erica, and I to lead P-Squad as we begin training and meet with our racers on October 5th.

As I reflect on the last three months home alot of blessings stand out.

The time I was able to spend with my family and friends.
The way I was able to minister to people in ordinary, everyday life.
The new church and community I was able to begin building.
The fundraising that God provided in the most creative ways.

In the last few weeks the Lord has showed me old lessons in new ways.

In order to be my best self I have to work out and have quiet time with Him before starting my day.
Within this month alot of the people I care deeply about were experiencing spiritual welfare. Health issues. Family issues. In every direction I felt that Satan was attacking. I leaned heavily on the Lord and working out to make sure I was able to pour myself out to those who needed me. It was a good reminder of how my rhythms fill me up so I am able to show Jesus.

2. Obedience
I have walked in obedience with the Lord but my time home brought it to another level. The ability to say no when I knew it was not beneficial. Obedience in talking to strangers when the Holy Spirit led. Finally my obedience to still squad lead. I am beyond excited to leave and serve but it would have been easy to stay at home. I was getting used to the comforts of my bed, air conditioning, excessive amount of clothes and shoes to pick from, and of course, being with my family and friends. I committed to leading and have been called to lead and with that I must go.
Through the tears of saying goodbye in a new relationship. Through consoling my niece as she lays her head in my chest as I explain that its not going to be as long and through that last hug at the airport with my momma as we both convince each other to stay strong, I still must go in obedience.

From feeling like I was waiting to leave to hard goodbyes, I know that this next season is going to be fruitful, difficult but so worth it because I am truly living the dream. Traveling. Serving. Living Community. Discipling. 

1st Samuel 15:22

Updates:

We fly out of the states on October 10th to Belize! I will be at a basecamp with three all girls teams for the entire month.

I have officially reached my fundraising goal for my first five months ($3,800). The rest of the money that I need to raise will go to one week I will spend in Romania for a debrief in May and another week for final debrief in Rwanda! Thank you all for your support thus far. If you have any questions please ask. I would love for y'all to pray about donating.